I thought I’d do a quick post on what’s happening in my fitness world this week. I’ve been upping the cardio quite a bit to try and drop some of the weight that has been piling itself on since Andrew and I started dating. I definitely want to continue strength training, but losing some of the weight so that I can fit and look good in my wedding dress is the priority right now. And so far I’ve lost four pounds! I know it sounds crazy, but I feel like I can already see it in my face and how my clothes fit. It’s a sigh of relief, to be quite honest.
So onto the workouts!
As I’ve told Andrew, I’m just feeling good. I think with gaining over thirty pounds I was really starting to feel sluggish. Even though I’m tall (almost 5’11”!), thirty pounds is a heck of a lot to gain. My clothes started fitting funny or not fitting at all, and I’m really looking forward to getting back into some of my favorite jeans and cute dresses. Plus, I just keep thinking about my wedding dress and how I want to look and feel on my wedding day.
I know that Andrew is concerned that losing weight will trigger my ED. But I’m trying to be careful and resist any bingeing urges so that purging is not even an option. And honestly, after this year, I will be happy to eat a little bit more than I’m eating right now. I already swore to Andrew that on our honeymoon (to Disney World!!!) I will really relax and let myself eat and enjoy with no guilt, worries, or weight-talk. But for now, I just want to feel better and I know I will feel more comfortable and confident in my body if I just drop some pounds.
My goal is between 25 and 30 pounds but I never know what’s gonna happen with my body and metabolism and the scale. It’s unpredictable. So I’m going to try and be nice to myself and relaxed through this process. Anyone who knows me knows this will be difficult, but luckily I’ve got my love to help and support me with his calm and laid back personality. It’ll be interesting if nothing else!
Hope you have a great Thursday!